Welcome to the Blog - Big Boy

Hello there and welcome to the very first blog post! As an introduction I want to speak about the idea and purpose of this space, as well as who I am.

My name is Torkel and I am a writer of poetry and fiction, I also dabble in digital art, video editing, and general day by day vegan athleticism. My goal in life is to be able to make a genuine difference in the world with my creativity and writing, whether that be by changing people’s opinions on animal cruelty, helping people to revaluate how they interact socially, or simply by making people laugh or inspiring someone else to follow their creativity.

Now with all that being said, what I want from this space is for it to be a home for my many unpublished little stories, poems and other such things from my personal catalogue, as well as reviews, opinion pieces, and original content from other creators and individuals to share with all of you beautiful people. So if all of that sounds in any way interesting to you then please check out our social media accounts to keep up to date with new posts and if you have an idea or a project that you would like to share then please contact us.

For now I shall share some lyrics that I wrote recently about manhood. As it has been for many people, perhaps the first strong inspiration that I ever had for writing was through lyrics and music, particularly that of bands like SikTh, System of a Down and Meshuggah. I didn't fully realise it at the time as a teenager but a lot of this music that I consumed was pretty anti-establishment, so it provided me with a lot of alternative ideas that of course helped form my sense of self-identity. Or perhaps I was already drawn to that kind of music subconsciously from the very beginning, I cannot confidently say. Though I imagine that it is most likely a combination of both possibilities.

The voice of these lyrics, titled "Big Boy" are very much inspired by Nick Cave's music, which I am sure many of you might recognise. It is fairly safe to say that over the last couple of years I have been utterly obsessed with his entire discography.

Big Boy

I'm a man, I'm a man

I'm a man - I'm a man

If I keep repeating these words

I'll become what I am

I'm a man, I'm a man

I'm a man - I'm a man

I was drowning in blood

But now I'm drifting in sand

Ohhhh I'm a man, I'm a man

At least I think that I am

She feeds me such knowledge

From the bed to the pan

I am humbled

Oh darling I am humbled

In the presence of your tears

As you let out a sigh of sorrow

But I'm a man

If that's what I say that I am

Then that's what I'll be

Until I declare for myself

Crystallize and morph into what now exactly

I thought that I knew

I've torn up my room

I drove 32 hours away

Sliding around in my seat

The journey made me nervous

Shouting out the window at strangers

Yeah I'm deranged and dangerous

Hmmm maybe I'm a man

Send me down to the gallows

Where my brother was hanged

There's where we'll see the ocean licking at dogs

I'll kick off my shoes and dive into the world

Then come right back out screaming

With bleached blonde hair and a rocketship

This is my destiny

Burning and bubbling up, up we go